Off to a vacation!

Although i am off to a vacation after a long time but somehow i am not looking very forward to it.
All those familiar faces which i had been with, those people whom i had relied upon, some are not there anymore, no more in this world, one person who had always been a source of comfort and whom i had relied for any and every kind of wisdom, is now in a state where i don't know how i will even communicate with, one thing that hurts me even more that she seems to have forgotten her very own children, cannot even recall their names seems to remembers me every day and calls out to me, i never knew i was the centre of this much affection and can i really come up to the expectations that comes along this devotion?
Another bad news came on Friday, my lovely cousin with whom i had shared my sweet childhood has died, after suffering at hands of a cerebral cancer of some sort.
can still picture her as my never failing companion, a sister i never had, and now as i was gearing up to be able to meet her one last time she has already gone, with these things at hand can you anticipate a vacation, i know tearful days await me when i will choke and recall the times i shared with my loved ones, once again when i set foot in my homeland mum and dad you will not be there to welcome me with hand open wide and now even pyari you will not be there to comfort me the way you always did, all the same at least i will be able to hear your voice before i lose that comfort too!

i hope i will be there till my kids need me and then they put me at such a high devotional pedestal, i hope i will never disappoint my kids and my husband.

Life is so busy

It is like you keep working, waiting for the time when you can have a break, a long earned vacation and then the long awaited vacation starts, you want to do nothing but then you did line up tons of things to do when you do have time and so you start cleaning and arranging, entertaining and then you have a long awaited, much anticipated vacation, a trip, so now another spree of shopping for the trip, then on the holiday what do you do? Again shopping!!!!!!!
Then ultimately you are back from an exhilarating trip filled with meeting people so you want to meet, some you can’t do without meeting and then back home what do you do again? Unpack and then rearranging the latest purchases so eventually the vacation is over and you are even more tired than ever before, and back to work, people expect you to work better but you are tired.
So was the vacation worth it, I feel, yes!!!! At least you got to have a change, a different kind of schedule.

The moral of the above is you can never escape from work, be glad till you can accomplish these tasks, God knows when all this will be completely unattainable.

So now in the next few days I will be off to my long pending vacation back home, I hope all ends well with not many controversies as some will definitely come up!!!!!!!

Endeavour!

As the title aptly suggests- this is my very first attempt to express my self. Although known to be a loud mouth i have been expressing myself in the past but as time passed, experience taught me that it is best to keep your mouth shut and it will definately save you from many problems.
the next thing to learn though is to decline. God why can i not say no to any request or demand made? and then i do my best, put all my energies and efforts to do it to the best of my abilities, and everyone who is willing to help me, their best abilities. the result is a fine piece of work but the price i pay, the time i spend and the energy spent is never acknowledged. It seems in this part of world appreciation is a quality never considered important.
Any how this is a first and lets see how many new things i will be able to learn to do.